I am pregnant
Beyond the due date.
This is me checking out for movement –
Alive or not?
how long do I have to wait for the labor?
It is going to hurt and except for breathing in and out
and pushing, it will all be out of my hand.
What if they are stillborn?
What if all the wait was for nothing?
When I look down at the blood covered body of it
Will I be able to shrug, bury it and move on?
Will I be able to say “Words, words and words”
And accept my failure?
So what if my post-term word has long legs, thin arms and loose skin?
It will be alert and wide eyed.